My favorite boy band member is.... gay?!?

I'm a child of the 80's, as such I grew up in the era of the big boy bands.  Think New Kids on the Block, Backstreet Boys, and 'NSync.  I have to say that I was much more of a fan of the New Kids and 'NSync.  And much like every other tween and teenage girl I had my favorite boy bander. 

At the onset of elementary school I was seriously into the New Kids.  Of course, so was every other little girl at our school.  In fact, my very first concert was Tiffani and the New Kids at the Ionia Free Fair (think 4-H or County Fair - not exactly a huge venue!).  And like many of the other girls we supported our favorite boy bander with buttons.  And these weren't just any buttons, they were the BIG buttons that were the size of dinner plates.  Girls wore these buttons as a badge of honor and I'm sure mothers everywhere HATED them because they had to just put massive holes in our shirts.

Most girls loved the young, cute, lead "singer" of the groups.  Think Justin Timberlake or Joey McIntyre.  Some of the more bad ass (as bad ass as you can be in elementary school and middle school)  girls liked the bad boys in the group (think Donnie or Joey Fatone).  But, I wasn't either of them.  me, I liked the quiet one, the guy that even in this very popular group seemed to be the underdog.  Me, I loved the Lance Bass and the Jonathan McKnight type.

Fast forward to adult-hood, both these and mine.  We began to hear more and more about these boy banders growing up.  First, Lance Bass comes out of the closet.  Great, good for him.  I'm extremely supportive of people accepting who they truly are.  Next, Jonathan McKnight comes out.  Good for him, I hope he finds the love of his life and is happy forever.

But, shit... what does that say about me?  I was really into TWO boy bands, and I'm two for two on picking the ONE gay boy to worship. And god forbid I go into my love of the one and only Ricky Martin.  again gay.

Apparently I not only like to go for the celebrity crushes that are unlikely to happen, I go for the ones that will NEVER happen because these boys don't even like my girlie parts.  

I think I need to start getting into hard rock or something, maybe rap... where I can fall in love with those who aren't gay.  Then again, you never know about those rockers - they do like makeup and skin tight pants... and don't even get me going on the how "down low" thing.

Maybe I should just stick to reality and stay away from my celebrity crushes, apparently my gaydar is just very off.

** And I will note, in NO WAY do I not support homosexuality, I'm just more alarmed at myself for always falling for the gay ones **

The "bad girls" burden

So, let me tell you a story.  It's kind of sad in a way.  Lets say, hypothetically a girl is good at sex or at least one part of sex (say, maybe the blow job).  We shall call her the "bad girl"  And maybe this Bad Girl has done a bit of reforming in the past little while (check Missing Mr. Right Now post).  And while she's got some great techniques in her back pocket she's not really handing that shit out anymore.  (Wait, not that she ever did!) 

Anyway, there is a true burden to being good in bed, especially when you are living the "celibate" lifestyle waiting for Mr. Perfect (even if that's a myth - "she" chooses to believe!)  It's amazing how many of the past men come out of the woodwork.  And it's not the good men (granted, how many men that are in the past would you consider "good?)  But it's the guys that you really didn't want to hear from again.  Think dates that you might have felt sorry for and played with... (no one said she was perfect - so suck it, that was BEFORE!)  Or guys with teeny peeny that might have been in the past that she might have dated, but it didn't work out, and lets be serious - if you are going to just fool around, without any commitment you really aren't going to chose the guy with the teeny peen! 

And then there is the really hard ones (pun maybe intended!) those guys coming back for more that "she" actually enjoined in bed.  You know how hard it is to resist that.  Especially when they are telling you how good you are in bed.  That's really hard to resist! 

Here's to all the reforming bad girls out there!  Trying to resist all the advances from guys coming back for more.